This Morning in Church my Minister Larry McAdams commented that you can lose your joy dealing with a chronic illness. He was preaching on Philippians and how Paul told us to Rejoice in the Lord. Well it got me to thinking. I did lose my joy when I was in pain, but I did find it again. So I want to list the ways Lupus has taught me to Rejoice.
Lupus taught me no matter what my husband has my back. He has modified our home, life, and anything else we need to make life easier for me. He even does laundry. I prefer him to cook things like McDonalds, Delivery pizza and such lol. But what joy to know he will always be there for me when I have often wondered if he even still liked me. Lupus has taught me how much he truly loves me
Lupus has taught me I raised two strong loving and intelligent kids. My kids will always drop anything and come running when they are needed. They have sat in hospitals, doctor visits, surgeries and many test when Dad could not be there. They even remember what the doctor says and report it all to dad. Lupus does not allow me to remember all. What Joy to know you raised your kids right and they love their mama no matter what.
Lupus has brought me back to God. I don't think I ever lost my faith but it did waiver. I have spent many days praying for God to take me home. He has not answered that prayer in the way I asked but he did answer it. I am still here and learning all the blessings I truly have. And with God's help I think I have found a purpose in Lupus. I will somehow get through school. I will learn to be a counselor for the chronically ill and through it all I will show God's Love through it all.
Lupus has took my hair God has brought it back
Lupus has took 5 inches of my colon God showed me I didn't need it
Lupus took my healthy Lungs. God helped me work towards being able to walk around anyway. I have walked and prayed for many years for God to help me not lose my air. I can now walk 3 miles a day.
Lupus Has showed me when things get super tough my brother and my sisters will always be there for me. They will drop everything and come and help. I grew up never knowing rather they really cared or not and what Joy to find out they did.
After my Lupus diagnosis a grandson I had not seen in a year came back into my life. And God gave me 2 more adorable grandsons, What a joy they are. Think of all I would of missed if God had took me home. I often wonder if I would appreciated being a Grandma like I should if it was not for Lupus. They are truly the biggest joys in my life.
So what am I trying to say. Well in all things we can rejoice. As awful as it can get there is always a way to look for good. When Lupus finally takes my life I hope that my loved ones remember I am home and no longer in pain. I hope even in the worst days you may find some way to rejoice. I also found a new favorite verse today
Philippians 4:9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.
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